Wednesday

Why does this happen
it used to be intentional
is it a subconcious thing now
an automatic reflex of destruction
somehow I manage to hurt
the one I don't want to
I used to do it on purpose
when I was afraid of feeling
but this time
I didn't see
I didn't notice
will you forgive me?
I can't bear the thought
the thought of you
not trusting me
will this be the final straw
will this forever block you from seeing
from seeing my love for you
the pain I feel when you are hurt
the utter turmoil in my soul
as I read your words
as I read that I hurt you
it was bad enough to hurt them
but I hurt you
and now my heart is in a million peices
will you pick them up?