Dizzy

Emotional tailspin
never ending whirlwind
that one chases
yet for another
my heart it races

confusion builds un-yielding
my joy is concealing
the angry reaction
to the boy's distraction

and yet I wait each day
for that man to say
all the things from that boy's heart and mind

the one he loves me
and I run
hoping only to find
this other man
the one I love
and yet he does not see
that in his slow deliberate gaze
he already has me

Where the story starts

what is this I see
another peice of me
as I walk the trail
I find my peices there
peices that were lost
stolen ripped and goen
peices that were never there
but by grace
and love
are won
peices that others hold
peices that fit true
never once expecting
a peice to be you
you fit
so well
right here
in place
that I am out of words
you fit
so well
right here
it seems
i've another lesson to learn
He guides my life
my Lord
my love
He guides you and me
it seems
for now
He's guiding us
to something yet unseen
walk with me
a while my dear
before we have to part
and maybe
just maybe here
is where the story starts

Awakening

flight
without sight
is terrbliy frightening
height
on this night
with you death defying
life
anew
breathed into my soul
gift
of you
making me whole
day
each one
with out you seems false
love
I've found
forsaking all else

Love

Right there all along
this love I have for you
we shared all the time
I never had a clue
someone caught a glimpse
a glimmer in my eye
they asked from whence it came
and you were my reply

there were no words involved
no story there to tell
they still know not of you
yet here my thoughts they dwell

I can not shake this knot
that's filling all of me
it's like I forgot
exactly how to breathe
yet there you are
and in it goes
the air it fills my lungs
still the distance far
and no one knows
that in silence my heart is hung.

My New Song: Despite it All

This is my new song, I wrote it amidst some inner turmoil. It's a representation of a dialogue between Jesus and myself and it's so full of imapct that I thought I would share it with you.





What would you do
If I told you
I loved you anyway

what you you think
if I still cared

what would you say
if I just
dropped everything
and left everyone with out a care


what would you do
if told you
I loved you anyway

and what would you think
if I was still there

what would you say
if I just packed up everything
and got the heck outta here

and she says:
despite it all I feel your love surround me
I can't run away
despite it all you presence envelopes me
I can't look away
despite it all you voice it calls to me
there's nothing left to say
no not today


what would you do
if I told you everything
would you run away

what if I told you
I lied about everything
would you still want me

and he says:
despite it all I still love you, don't run away
despite it all I see your beauty and I will always stay
despite it all I see you love me, don't go away
despite it all you're precious to me I want you more today
than any other day

what would you do
if I told you everything
would you run away

what would you say
if I just dropped everything
packed up and ran away

and he says:
despite it all I still love you you don't have to run away
despite it all I see your beauty and I will always stay
despite it all I see you Love me, don't go away
despite it all you're precious to me I want you more today
than any other day


what would you say
if I lied about everything
would you always stay?

Why

My best and worst
comes out in you
this reaction
is nothing new
the love and hate
have as of late
left my heart
in a state of rage
it's ragged and tattered
on the floor
always searching for something more
it delights in nothing nice
always it's own sacrifice
living only yet to die
and yet finds itself asking why
why to love
and why to lose
why to hate
and why to choose
why to learn
and why to leave
why to give
and why recieve
if all is ripped
at a passing glance
will it ever learn to dance?

Is this the way?

sand dwindles
through the hourglass
completely content
watching the growing grass
the clock is lending
a sense of place
a heart is mending
in time and space
centrality envelopes all
listen to the song birds call
a girlish giggle
a boyish grin
is this the way that love begins?

I know not where
this will go
I shouldn't care
that you don't know
my mouth it opens
sink or swim
is this the way that love begins?

My every thought
a lengthy pause
an unsigned contract
a hidden clause
of my reaction
to your light
this is where
my soul takes flight
what if I lose
But Oh....to win!
is this the way that love begins?

Metamorphasis

Anarchy is overtaking
the caverns of a heart
a hierarchy is replaced
by a chaotic work of art

reality bends and breaks
emotions give way
gingerly the artist molds
his work another way

changes it from red to blue
from gentle to concrete
from old and grey to very new
shiny and complete

portrays a greater depth
of something yet unseen
the dark and yet blinding light
of change inside of me

change from gone
to founded sanity
change to include
a place in humanity

the crafter is skillful
and I bend in tune
I'll try not to be willful
for it could be my ruin

Enraptured

Fresh gleam of dawn
fills a hardened heart
I feel the wall crumble
as you healing starts
your grace is all I need
your mercy is complete
your love is everlasting
and your salvation oh so sweet
failures fade away
insecurities disappear
no more silence in the way
there's nothing left to fear
your kindness
it surrounds me
as I fall to my knees
your compassion
it confounds my mind
encompassing all of me
what is there
left at all to do
but to surrender all
and give it all to you

Simplicity

simplicity
is something to be marvelled
in its complexity
the splendor of the Lord
bound in everything
a celebration of creation
in the smallest twig
a victory of exquisite proportions
in the normalcy we sing
the merest gentle flower
completely enraptures me
how complicated
how careful
and yet
next to humanity
its exudes perfect docility
reflections of the grace and love
in all that was touched
by God's hands
and I stare
unable to fully comprehend
the ever expanding extent of it's
simplicity

Makeshift Miracles

Makeshift miracles
a mother's heart unwinds
as her word unfolds
a daughter's left behind

Grace and mercy calls
a woman changes suit
her walls come crashing down
encased in His pursuit

A love so pure and kind
a soul it soon divides
as all she knew and loved
no longer it resides

The hurt it melts away
and peace it takes the place
all because the Saviour
offered love and grace

A Turn Unseen

The river ever winding
takes a turn unseen
as the sun rises blindly
one single golden beam
the dew upon the grass
the flower by the stream
its surface made of glass
the mirror of a dream
the colours they collide
as the season turns to fall
the meadow opens wide
as winter starts to call
starting on this journey
not knowing what I'd find
but thoughts of you keep filing
my body soul and mind
your spirit's deeply embedding
your mark upon my heart
your world it is a canvass
a master piece of art
the story's never ending
each moment plays a part
all creation's banding
your will inside it's heart
your presence it surrounds me
as I wonder in a trance
the beauty of this world
in it's God reflecting dance
I know one thing's for certain
as I bow down at your feet
because you tore the curtain
you made my life complete

Out of Nowhere

breathless I continue to read
the words effect even my skin
from the top of my head
to my deep inner core
I am astounded
your words play with my heart
they play a song lost long ago
how you found the tune I do not know
But I am willing to find out
I press on to the next line
searching for the draw back
the passing phrase
but its not there
you are completly sincere
and I can only find
that I love you back